Living

Things are going well. Mom has been able to stay longer than I originally thought she could, which has been so great. She actually dusted my apartment. I don't think that has been done since we moved in.

But seriously, it is so nice to have her here. A lot of people don't get along with their mothers, which is such a shame. My mom is just wonderful. She was strict enough when we were kids and when we became adults she treated us like adults. Now she's my friend and my mom, which is just neat. We can sit and enjoy a good conversation or go out together and have fun, but then when I'm sick or upset I can snuggle in for a good Mommy hug.

Plus, it feels so good to have someone take care of you. Sean and I are both really independent, and while we do take care of each other, we're not doting. And I don't really want to be doted on by him. I know he loves me; I want him to do his own thing and be his own person. But occasionally I do like to just relax and be coddled, and while I can ask Sean to take care of me sometimes, my mom will instinctively know what to do and just go ahead and do it. It's such a comfort. I'll really miss her when she goes back home.

Monday I felt all right up until the end of the day, at which point I got really tired. Tuesday, though, I felt great the whole day, such that I ran errands on my way home and then tidied up the apartment. Yesterday was another okay day. I haven't had any moments this week where I've had to stop and gasp for breath, probably because I've been careful not to exert myself too much, but there have been times when I've been tired. At those times I just put my head down for a few minutes to recharge and I'm usually fine.

I've been sleeping all right, too. Last night and the night before I decided to skip the Flonase to see if that would help with how I seem to lose my voice when I'm at work. And it did seem to help yesterday; I wasn't nearly as hoarse. I think I can probably stop using the Flonase. Conveniently enough I have a doctor's appointment this morning, so I will ask him when I go.

I'll also be asking him if a sleep study is actually necessary--it probably isn't, so I should be able to cancel it, which will be good. I'm not sure how much of that insurance was going to cover :>

Later today I'm seeing the cardiologist again, and she said she might prescribe a third heart medication.

The next steps I need to take care of are organizing exercise and diet. I need to get a treadmill so I can walk indoors, and I need to figure out a good plan so I can eat heart-healthy foods and maybe lose some weight. It's funny to try and lose weight at a time when I can't really exert myself, but whatever ;>

Beyond the health stuff, there are a couple other things I want to do soon. First, Mom wants to buy me a new cell phone so I can take movies and pictures. Sean and I had a ridiculous experience at the Sprint store this past weekend--we were all ready to buy this brand new phone, but their system wouldn't let us buy it!--so we may change carriers. Hopefully we can make that decision this weekend.

The next thing is to get a dining room table, because I am planning on hosting Thanksgiving. I know the exact table I want, so I should probably just go ahead and order it. The problem will be finding chairs...the chairs that come with the set don't do it for me. We'll have to see how that goes.

I also need to get a desk and a file cabinet, or maybe just a desk with a file drawer, for the multipurpose room, so I can get all our paperwork off the floor. (I gave Gargantua the Monster Desk to Rex from work.)

Mom keeps asking me why I haven't bought an electric piano...I guess I just don't feel comfortable spending thousands of dollars when I'm not sure I'll be dedicated to it.

Grandma Flo called and offered to clean our apartment for me once a week, which is going to be a huge help. I'm going to see her on Saturday and work the details out. Also on Saturday, I think Mom and I are going to the mall. Maybe we can all go together...we'll have to see. Then, that evening when Sean's up, maybe we can figure out the cell phone thing.

And that's pretty much what's been going on. I feel fine on the whole, I have an idea of how things are going to work from now on, and I should be getting more details worked out today with my doctors. So there you have it.