Monday, September 19, 2005

I'm not strong

I don't know why I always thought I was, but I'm not. I don't know how to even begin to get to a point where I can deal with life.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Ok. I can't say that I know exactly what you're going thru, though I've been thru similar cycles of feelings. Feeling overwhelmed/lost does NOT mean you are weak!!! Being able to admit that you feel that way is a sign of strength in my book. The tree that bends is more likely to withstand the storm. Girl, I know things are hard. They may get harder.

**You will be ok.**

I'm not positive what you're religious preference is... I'm a strong believer. It helps.

If a home & family is what you want, then set your foot down that path. You've started looking at houses, right? You will find one. You will build up your space again & it will be all the more precious b/c of your loss.

I would put more here, but I get kind of personal. (I'm a fix it person. Not always received well. LOL) If you want to call me do so. I'm listed & you have my email.

One therapy that helps me sometimes is to sit & write, physically write a list of everything that I am grateful for.

I recently lost about 200 music cds. Music is my therapy & I'm having a hard time dealing with that. It's been 3 months & I still want to cry.

I'm here for you (even from a distance) & I will not stop praying for you & Sean.

~Shannon

Anonymous said...

You've been through a hell of a lot lately. No one can be that strong. The way you got fired after going through the fire, with your employers knowing full well what has been going on is just simply sick, and especially not being told why. I would call and demand an explanation; it's only fair. Also, I wonder sometimes if you are getting "jinxed" because of what you post. You know, jealousies, etc. Then I also read something about how employers are increasingly reading employee's blogs. Maybe another return trip home would be healing, you know, seeing the nephews and everyone--and even Kristanne! Ever consider Avon? It's starting to be worthwhile for me, and I've started to be thankful not to have a boss after reading your blog and seeing other people's problems.
I know I'm not supposed to contact you ever again, and I'm sorry. With all this horrible stuff going on in your life, it's hard not to try to offer some sort of consolation.
I truly hope for the best for you.

Anonymous said...

You are entitled to some mourning time. You lost your house, your job, and your path isn't clear. You are feeling lost right now, but it is only temporary.

Some introspection might do you good. Looking back on where you came from, the people you have known. Perhaps you have some bridges to mend. Old friends to find. Sometimes we find where we are going by looking at where we were. The one poster is right, home can often offer such clarity.