Thursday, September 15, 2005

Suddenly I'm falling apart

I guess that "delayed mourning" thing is really kicking in...I left the internship early today so I could be alone in the house for a change, and because I couldn't concentrate and wasn't getting anything done. Then I pretty much cried the whole way home.

I stopped at Springhouse. They wouldn't let me into the apartment, of course. I don't know what I was thinking. That I'd sneak in? I was told to talk to the apartment manager, so I did. She said they wouldn't know if they could recover anything until the demolition guys evaluated the situation, and they don't know when that'll be because they haven't even made an appointment with the demolition guys yet. She said they'd call. I don't know if I trust them to do that, given their history.

I feel like I should try to resign myself to losing all my writing. It's the writing that really got me, beyond even the pictures. I just want my hard drive. But if they can't even, like, rake the debris out of the structure and let me sort through it...maybe I should just give up now and stop hoping.

I'm tired of these situations. I'm tired of life telling me to give up on my hopes.

I have a horrible headache right now. Earlier I felt like I was going to throw up. Now I just want to turn off my brain and hide from life.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

:::hug hug:::
---kiss kiss---

M

Anonymous said...

*big, big hug*

Dawn

Heather Meadows said...

Thanks. *hug*

Miklos said...

What a terrible situation.

That stinks in a big big way.

Don't give up hope about your hard drive.