Tuesday, November 8, 2005

I can't have anything I want.

I can't have a house. I can't live in Japan. I can't travel.

Do you know why that is?

It's because I am a loser.

All these grand dreams, and no actual effort to achieve them.

No job.

No working on something to publish.

Zero progress on that "business idea" I kept hinting around about last year.

(Nothing about that secondary blog I was going to start, either.)

And all I do is spend my days avoiding the work I do have and should be doing.

I am a fucktard.

It's a miracle I managed to graduate from college.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Have you thought about going back to school? Maybe an advanced degree would lead you in the right direction.

Heather Meadows said...

I would love to retreat from life back into school. But there's no money for that. And I don't know what degree I would pursue, anyway.

Anonymous said...

School's not a bad idea. In this job market, you need a masters in something to get anywhere at all.

Anonymous said...

I wonder if the money is so tight, you couldn't get good financial aid. Having a job with just a bachelor's in this market is a miracle.