Twitter has been down all day, which is annoying because I like to use it to dash off quick complaints. Earlier, for example, I wanted to bitch about this production dude who decided to recite for me a complete plot synopsis of some anime he really likes. Yes, I enjoy anime, but you are boring the hell out of me. Shut up!
Time seemed to be moving awfully slowly this morning. It started when I was in bed waiting for my alarm to go off. The light coming in around the curtain in the bedroom looked the same every time I looked at it. I kept falling asleep and waking back up and still feeling tired but knowing I was going to have to get up "soon". Finally at 8:30 I actually checked the time and got up.
The first two hours of work were like two weeks. Very tired, trouble concentrating, and later, mild abdominal pain. I took the opportunity to call my doctors and create a game plan for tomorrow.
Today's symptoms include: coughing, nausea, gross taste in my throat, mild headache, mild abdominal pain, occasional burping, general feeling of tiredness. As usual, mild exertion exhausts me and I have to sit down for awhile to recover and catch my breath. When I woke up this morning, the wet raspiness was back in my throat and lungs. Also, I don't know if I've mentioned this at all, but I have had so much acne since this all started. It is driving me crazy. It seems like every time I look in the mirror there are five more zits.
Seeing my GP tomorrow morning to demand that he actually order some tests. Like a meeting with a cardiologist, and a chest X-ray, and more labs, and whatever else I can think of before then. I'm going to bring in my calendar with all my symptoms for this month written in it, to see if that will help him think of anything we've missed. I'm supposed to call my endocrinologist after that appointment and let them in on everything that's happening, so they can decide whether or not I should resume hormones.
My boss is back from Japan. I had asked her to see if she could find me a protection charm for my car, but apparently she didn't visit any shrines. She did, however, bring me a beautiful floral pattern drawstring bag and a cute bookmark with a paper girl sculpted on it, both handmade by her aunt, and she also brought me an adorable little desk ornament of an owl. It's hard to describe the thing. There's a big ball that sits on the desk, and out of that comes half a hoop of black wire, and then hanging off that is a smaller straight piece of wire, and on one end is the little round owl, and on the other are two colored balls to balance him. It's neat and it moves around with the air conditioning or with any vibrations on the desk.
She came in to talk to me today and told me that health has to be my first priority, because if we don't have our health, we don't have anything. It's a total cliche, but I know full well how true it is. I have never been so miserable in my life--well, maybe when I was hospitalized with cancer, but at least then I knew what I was in for and didn't fight every day to get things done.
I'm really lucky to have such a good boss. I hope I can get all this straightened out so I can go back to being the kind of employee I want to be--the kind of employee my boss deserves to have working for her.
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See, my first thoughts were not cardiac related, but that you might have Crohn's Disease or Celiac Disease. IBS is a more remote possibility because of the acne and skin problems. It could very well be cardiac related, but given your age I wouldn't place it higher on the index of suspicion. I would probably (given what I remember of your medical history) look into hormonal and endocrine problems, crohn's / celiac, then ponder something like cardiomegaly or look into a poor cardiac ejection fracture.
Hope you find out something soon and get better.
I know you want the doctors to come up with something soon, to find out why you've been feeling like crap.
Then you want to know a clear path to go down, in order to get better.
I don't blame you, that's how it was for me, anyway, when I finally found out I had asthma.
I just hope that in the meantime you'll feel better. I love you, and we'll eat yummy sherbet, and curry, and take dawdling little strolls at Riverwalk and the Greeneway when I get there. We COULD always go on another canal boat ride! :) Hold onto this *hug* until I can get there and give you the real thing.
HERE ARE LOTS OF FEEL BETTER WISHES!!
Wow, sorry you've been feeling bad. Hope you get everything figured out and are feeling back to normal soon!
Heather,
This is really upsetting to hear about. I find myself hoping it's just pent up stress and that you can find an outlet for that. I've been to the doctor in the past for not being able to catch my breath, etc. and went through a gamut of tests just to be told (correctly) that it was anxiety. I needed the tests and someone from the outside looking in to clue me in. Then my mom taught me some breathing exercises.
But anyway, it doesn't seem that simple from what you describe, I guess.
I felt compelled to type in some systems on a yahoo search, and it almost sound like you are ingesting poison, possibly from too much of something in your diet or time spent in nature?? I'm not trying to suggest anything spooky; sometimes it can happen without anyone having malintentions. I know it sounds crazy, but so do your symptoms. Anyway, I hope you get better soon and it's something passing.
Check it out:
http://www.msue.msu.edu/objects/content_revision/download.cfm/item_id.207878/workspace_id.-30/OC0417%20Revised%20Poisonous%20plants.pdf/
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